Hawaii Playlist

1. Poor Places- Wilco
2. Tiki Lounge God- The Presidents of the United States of America
3. Temptation (7" Mix)- New Order
4. Horchata- Vampire Weekend
5. Nobody's Fault But My Own- Beck
6. Between the Bars- Elliott Smith
7. Throw Away Your Television- Red Hot Chili Peppers
8. Zero- Yeah Yeah Yeahs
9. Ceremony- New Order
10. The Calendar Hung Itself- Bright Eyes
11. Tick Tick Boom- The Hives
12. D.A.N.C.E.- Justice
13. Trouble Comes Running- Spoon
14. Gold Soundz- Pavement

song i wrote.

I don't know the name of this and I don't know if it's any good but I finally wrote lyrics for some music I wrote.

Be careful.
Someday you might say something you can’t take back.
Someday you might hurt someone you never meant to.,

I won’t stick around here anymore.

Don’t worry
Bad things happen to everyone some of the time
Bad things happen to good people some of the time.

But I won’t stick around here anymore.

Stay calm.
Don’t be afraid.
They’ll never know, no they won’t.
The things you’ve done,
They’ll never know, no they won’t.

But I won’t stick around here anymore.

Prepare for the Worst.

New font.

I'm going to try to sleep more regular hours from now on. At least on weekdays and weeknights, I'm no longer going to be a vampire. This is going to be a pretty big shock to my system, because for the last six years, even when I've worked early in the morning, I've generally stayed up till at least 2 or 3.

What do I do at these ridiculous hours, you might ask? Generally I use the time that the rest of the world is asleep to watch movies and write, because it's quiet. Sometimes I read (which I need to do more often still). It turns out that my roommates aren't really home in the morning/afternoon very often, so I'll probably use that time for these things. I'll try it for at least a year, and if I don't like it, I'll return to my vampirical ways.

In other news, work on Nixon Vs. Dracula is going somewhat well. Hoping to start shooting by the end of February.

Also, hoping for more open mic nights next week.

Peace.

Apparently I Lied.

I haven't done so good on the whole "I'll write in here twice a week" thing, seeing as y'all have gone a week without nothing. Tomorrow we're playing another open mic night and Sundance plans should be somewhat finalized. Hooah!

Also, Gone With The Wind is a brutal, boring, miserable movie. Sorry, world.

new years resolutions

- exercise every day
-read one book every two weeks
-finish two short films and one screenplay
-watch all of AFI's top movies
-be better at french and german
-become a better cook
-learn 15-20 new songs on the piano to 95% accuracy
-update this at least twice a week
-save money for chicago

Sometimes

I wish the MTV show Jersey Shore had its own channel where it just played all day.

Everytime you close your eyes (lies! lies!)

The other night I was watching an episode of House where Dave Matthews plays an idiot savant who is amazing at the piano. At one point during the diagnosis, House starts playing I Don't Like Mondays by the Boomtown Kats. I watched his hands with my keyboard in front of me and figured out the intro, and I feel like the rest of the song is pretty easy from there. It's been a long time since I was that proud of myself. Music is one of the very few things that makes perfect sense in my mind. I'm lost without it, and I'm incredibly grateful for the ability to play instruments well.

I've been thinking about depression and pain and problems a lot lately. (For those of you just joining us, I've dealt with depression quite a bit for the last who knows how long, and there are times that it's been pretty scary.) This year's been strange in that I've finally found effective ways to deal with all of these things. I don't know if it'll stick cause I've been wrong before, but I feel pretty good about it. I'm thinking it has to do with me making an active decision not to let my fears get the better of me, like they have in the past. Seems like up until a few months ago, all of my decisions were based on that. I think I've got it down to half now, and it's only a matter of time that I get it down to zero. Some people would argue that a little fear is healthy, but I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it controlling every aspect of my life. It's about time I started taking risks.

This is why I'm moving to Chicago. Partly to prove to myself that I can support myself in a big city, and partly because this is one of the very few ways that I'm ever going to get anywhere in my desired career. And I will be going places. By 2014 I will be on your TV, at the very least.

2009 was the year I finally woke up, and 2010 is going to be the year I rise from the ashes like a Phoenix.